Clarkson was despondent, friend testifies at Spector trialBy Michael Muskal
Times Staff Writer
12:00 PM PDT, July 16, 2007
In the days before her death, Lana Clarkson was so depressed about her career that she said she didn't want to live, the woman who said she was the best friend of the late actress testified today.
Punkin Laughlin, a club promoter also known as Punkin Pie, said Clarkson told of her despair over how her life was going.
"I don't want to live anymore," Laughlin quoted Clarkson as saying in a telephone call. "I don't want to live in this town. I want to end it."
The defense, which contends that Clarkson killed herself, has called the incident an "accidental suicide."
Laughlin was the latest in a string of witnesses to testify that Clarkson was despondent about her financial woes, her lack of prospects in the entertainment industry and her lack of a stable relationship.
"Clarkson was crying uncontrollably" when she called, Laughlin testified. "She said, 'Pie I can't take any more.... I'm done, done, done.' "
"Do you feel some guilt about that conversation?" defense attorney Roger J. Rosen asked.
But Rosen had to refresh Laughlin's memory about just how bad off Clarkson said she was. He showed her a report of Laughlin's earlier statements.
After consulting the report, Laughlin then said she remembered the full quote implying Clarkson wanted to end her life.
Under cross-examination by Deputy Dist. Atty. Alan Jackson, Laughlin confirmed that she never mentioned the conversation with investigators. She also said she never indicated that Clarkson was depressed.
Laughlin said she didn't tell investigators because she was trying to protect Clarkson.